So my hubby suggested that I check out if I can get paid to write because apparently I'm not to shabby at it. I was writing a cover letter mock up for him and some basic pointers he should emphasize in his resume. So that triggered something. It could have been the handsome man speaking to me, or the fact that we are in dire need of money but I figured I'd seek it out...what's it take from me? A few words? My ideas? I mean really...not to shabby me thinks.
So I'm researching it and checking stuff out and think that a circus freak has a 3rd leg so why not?
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Friday, July 9, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
The Decisions We Make
Well we just have to be ok with the decisions we make right? That is what I'm struggling with right now. We had two choices. Stay in a small town while I worked full time in a call center. It was good pay but that didn't really matter since our cost of living was, ironically, so high. Such is the cost of living in an old drafty house, the rent may be cheap but there is a reason! So it was either work 40 hrs a week and be alone, in a small house, in a small town, with my closests friends at least 1hr away, and my husband on tour with the band for a month. OR move to Chicago on our tax return, be together for almost 2 weeks, have hubby leave on tour, have no income whatsoever but also have minimal bills (which don't seem so minimal when you have no income, get it?), look for jobs for over a month straight with no leads, but at least be in the city we know we're going to be staying in.
Difficult I know! Things have improved a bit. I have a job for about 8 hrs a week working with a concert production agency. This is great because it's in the line of work that I want to do. It's not great because it doesn't pay much, takes me 45 minutes to get there and I have to pay tolls. But at least it's something right? So I've gotten a call back from two retail stores and finally have an interview with good ol' Starbucks for a management position but I'm not holding my breath. Both retail stores are part time. In fact one called me and offered me the job but said I was over qualified and thinks that I should decline, which I did because they couldn't pay me enough for us to live. The other retail store has me on an interview tomorrow but again, it's part time and they probably aren't going to offer me enough for us to survive in the city. I'm holding out for coffee connection.
I was talking to Naph about this the other day, how it's hard for me to see other couples who've been married half the time we are doing twice as good. Generally this is because the dude in the relationship works full time and we agreed that if Naph was going to pursue the band thing then he wouldn't be able to work, at least not at the beginning. So now he is finally available to take part time jobs but again, it's a hard economy. I think he'll find a job faster than I will because he has mad skills in design and has a great portfolio, but again, he can't work full time.
And in this current climate, generally women get paid $.70 to ever $1.00 that men get paid and I'm really seeing that reverberate in all the jobs I've checked out. It's discouraging. So how do we see God in all of this? How do we know this is what we're suppose to be doing, and where we're suppose to be? When will we get our own place? When will we get jobs? When will I be able to start the career I've been thinking and praying about for so long? Everything seems so elusive. When will I even get time to send out our support letters so that we can go on the missions trip we've already guaranteed being part of?
I mainly wanted to bring you in on this because I really need prayer. The longer we go with waiting the smaller my faith gets. I need to be in the word and on my knees a lot more but my discouraged heart finds it hard to even do that. I know for a fact that I'll look back on this one day and see how much God has been in control of things, but right now my blinders are on!
Either way, my heart is hardening and this isn't good. My husband is trying to console me and my mind tells me he has no idea what he's talking about even though I know for a fact he does. I need a little reality check, a blessing check, and a faith check....
Difficult I know! Things have improved a bit. I have a job for about 8 hrs a week working with a concert production agency. This is great because it's in the line of work that I want to do. It's not great because it doesn't pay much, takes me 45 minutes to get there and I have to pay tolls. But at least it's something right? So I've gotten a call back from two retail stores and finally have an interview with good ol' Starbucks for a management position but I'm not holding my breath. Both retail stores are part time. In fact one called me and offered me the job but said I was over qualified and thinks that I should decline, which I did because they couldn't pay me enough for us to live. The other retail store has me on an interview tomorrow but again, it's part time and they probably aren't going to offer me enough for us to survive in the city. I'm holding out for coffee connection.
I was talking to Naph about this the other day, how it's hard for me to see other couples who've been married half the time we are doing twice as good. Generally this is because the dude in the relationship works full time and we agreed that if Naph was going to pursue the band thing then he wouldn't be able to work, at least not at the beginning. So now he is finally available to take part time jobs but again, it's a hard economy. I think he'll find a job faster than I will because he has mad skills in design and has a great portfolio, but again, he can't work full time.
And in this current climate, generally women get paid $.70 to ever $1.00 that men get paid and I'm really seeing that reverberate in all the jobs I've checked out. It's discouraging. So how do we see God in all of this? How do we know this is what we're suppose to be doing, and where we're suppose to be? When will we get our own place? When will we get jobs? When will I be able to start the career I've been thinking and praying about for so long? Everything seems so elusive. When will I even get time to send out our support letters so that we can go on the missions trip we've already guaranteed being part of?
I mainly wanted to bring you in on this because I really need prayer. The longer we go with waiting the smaller my faith gets. I need to be in the word and on my knees a lot more but my discouraged heart finds it hard to even do that. I know for a fact that I'll look back on this one day and see how much God has been in control of things, but right now my blinders are on!
Either way, my heart is hardening and this isn't good. My husband is trying to console me and my mind tells me he has no idea what he's talking about even though I know for a fact he does. I need a little reality check, a blessing check, and a faith check....
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